This is a bit of a long story, so if you don't want to read the whole thing, that's fine... I just want to tell it to make myself feel a little better (I know this isn't the place for this and probably this is going to be deleted for not being on par with the normal AM topics, but of all the /rs on Reddit, THIS is the better for sharing stories and finding help and support (personally).
For context...a couple of weeks ago I posted for tips on getting my morning erections back as I just didn't have any.
Everyone was really good to me, giving me different pointers and tips...well: The next three mornings I woke up with morning erections (80-85% which is insane) and I WAS SO EXCITED.
That, added to the fact that I had greatly decreased my PMO (Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm) gave me a confidence boost (although I was already happy about my results and it showed with my confidence when talking to women).
All my emotion vanished when I noticed that my erections stopped appearing: I felt like I was going back to square one and I got quite discouraged... I was about to leave AM for good, but something crazy happened: doing what was going to be my last AM exercise, I SAW MY DORSAL VEIN BEATING AND FULLY VISIBLE. It was insane.
I thought "You know what? I can't give up" and I continued... my confidence returned and guess what: last weekend I went to a bar with friends and I was lucky... with 4 WOMEN: one of them stayed at my house.
The one that stayed at my house was the one I liked the most of the 4 I was with that night: she was a supermodel (beautiful women from the bar would come up to her and tell her she was beautiful) and, honestly, they weren't wrong... she exudes sensuality.
We had the best fucking foreplay ever...my penis was as hard as metal (plus she was wet...not even: she was almost soaking wet: also, she was so confuse about my dorsal vein pulse) and I was ready for the best sex of my life...but it didn't happen.
One try and within 5 or 10 minutes my erection faded...we stopped to get erect again and the second time exactly the same thing happened...at this point she thought I wasn't turned on by her which I tried to explain to him that it was not like that and that he did not know what was happening.
Later, we tried a third time...same result. She stayed the night and the next morning she left. I write this while feeling like shit and crying a little.
I know this doesn't have a happy ending or a "keep going, it's going to be worth it" message...I'll probably quit the exercises, since I'm resigned to it.
I'm not looking for answers either because you guys have nothing to do with what's going on...as I said at the beginning, I need to unload somehow.
Thank you all for the help you have given me... keep going and you will be able to fulfill your dreams: there is no solution for me.