I'm really frustrated with life recently. Mom is fighting cancer, and a bad reaction to the chemo put her in the hospital again suddenly, which she was only just released from. I depend on her for a lot of things because we were working together on a business. She can't do any of those things right now, because she's still recovering.

Mom's condition also put dad in the hospital. He's sleeping about half the day recently because he's gotten congestive heart disease from the stress (and a lifetime of bad eating habits which he is not being very cooperative in changing). Dad is the main income in the household. Or was.

So currently, I'm broke, in debt, and feel like my company (which is also the vessel of my hopes and dreams in the form of my personal creative works) and my parents are dying and there's nothing I can do.

I doubt anyone who will read this can do anything for me, and if you have any advice for me, please tell it to a wall. I will take sympathy, but unless your advice involves actually giving me material assistance (which I am not asking for, as this is not the place for it; I am just venting stress), I fear I would take it as criticism and not helpful.

Basically what the title says… just please do read and fit the "demands/criteria", to make it easier for all of us :)

Games I play atm (due note, I'm mostly done with Battle Royale games, period. only playing them while waiting for better games/genres):

- Blackout (The game i play the most atm. though I truly hate Battle Royale as a whole) - +6 K/D

- Terraria (just started it, seems alright as a chill game)

- Minecraft (might get back to it)

- Rocket League (every now and then)

- Overwatch (GM/Top500 every season since s01 , though, I haven't played the last 3 seasons, just started again though).

- Roe (Ringe of elysium, it's pretty good, WAY better than PUBG, which has always sucked, so that's that).

- Subnautica

Games to come:

- VR games (I had to sell my VR because I needed the money, but I'll definitely get it again at some point)

- Anthem (maybe)

- Mordhau (100%, extremely awesome, fun, competitive, semi-realistic medieval game, look it up)

- Rage 2

- The Outer Worlds (looks crazy)

- Ashen (maybe)

- Outer Wilds

- More...

MORE MORE MORE... we'll see. Also a few playstation exclusives etc. well, because it's exclusives, otherwise I would obviously play it on PC.

Few "demands":

- +20 (Preferably)

- Speak english fluently! (or danish, lal)

- Be atleast decent at gaming, no matter the game we try, I can't stand if it's like watching a fly trying to go through the window.. you know?

- Do not be = toxic, arrogant, narcissitic, immature

- We are trying to form a friendship here.. so, show interest, it's not a one way street.

SEND ME YOUR DISCORD/STEAM IF INTERESTED & HAVE A GOOD DAY/EVENING.

From the only game that kept my mind off of how shitty my life really is. My only hobby, which a large amount of time and money was spent on. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I think I'm at my wits end.

I wasn't sure if I should post this here, I have been a member of this sub since it's creation, lurking(and occasionally commenting) but here I am posting anyway.

Anyway the upbeat nature of the show combined with the upbeat fan art/comics really brings up my mood in the dark times.

Pisses me off. I just want to do some matches at a high frame rate and good resolution, but it seems impossible like this. i just want to be able to play with some livestreames. Here are the specs. How to manage?

System Information

Time of this report: 7/20/2016, 22:56:40 Machine name: DEVEN-HP Operating System: Windows 7 Home Premium 64-bit (6.1, Build 7601) Service Pack 1 (7601.win7sp1_gdr.150525-0603) Language: English (Regional Setting: English) System Manufacturer: Hewlett-Packard System Model: p7-1154 BIOS: Ver: HIB_707.ROM vHIB7.07 Processor: AMD A6-3600 APU with Radeon(tm) HD Graphics (4 CPUs), ~2.1GHz Memory: 6144MB RAM Available OS Memory: 5616MB RAM Page File: 4076MB used, 7154MB available Windows Dir: C:\Windows DirectX Version: DirectX 11 DX Setup Parameters: Not found User DPI Setting: Using System DPI System DPI Setting: 96 DPI (100 percent) DWM DPI Scaling: Disabled DxDiag Version: 6.01.7601.17514 64bit Unicode DxDiag Previously: Crashed in system information (stage 3). Re-running DxDiag with "dontskip" command line parameter or choosing not to bypass information gathering when prompted might result in DxDiag successfully obtaining this information

DxDiag Notes

  Display Tab 1: The file aticfx64.dll,aticfx64.dll,aticfx64.dll,aticfx32,aticfx32,aticfx32,atiumd64.dll,atidxx64.dll,atidxx64.dll,atiumdag,atidxx32,atidxx32,atiumdva,atiumd6a.cap,atitmm64.dll is not digitally signed, which means that it has not been tested by Microsoft's Windows Hardware Quality Labs (WHQL).  You may be able to get a WHQL logo'd driver from the hardware manufacturer.
    Sound Tab 1: No problems found.
    Sound Tab 2: No problems found.
    Sound Tab 3: No problems found.
      Input Tab: No problems found.

DirectX Debug Levels

Direct3D: 0/4 (retail) DirectDraw: 0/4 (retail) DirectInput: 0/5 (retail) DirectMusic: 0/5 (retail) DirectPlay: 0/9 (retail) DirectSound: 0/5 (retail) DirectShow: 0/6 (retail)

Display Devices

      Card name: AMD Radeon HD 6530D
   Manufacturer: Advanced Micro Devices, Inc.
      Chip type: AMD Radeon Graphics Processor (0x964A)
       DAC type: Internal DAC(400MHz)
     Device Key: Enum\PCI\VEN_1002&DEV_964A&SUBSYS_2ACD103C&REV_00
 Display Memory: 3054 MB

Dedicated Memory: 502 MB Shared Memory: 2552 MB Current Mode: 1920 x 1080 (32 bit) (60Hz) Monitor Name: HP 23bw IPS LED Backlit Monitor Monitor Model: HP 23bw Monitor Id: HWP304A Native Mode: 1920 x 1080(p) (60.000Hz) Output Type: DVI Driver Name: aticfx64.dll,aticfx64.dll,aticfx64.dll,aticfx32,aticfx32,aticfx32,atiumd64.dll,atidxx64.dll,atidxx64.dll,atiumdag,atidxx32,atidxx32,atiumdva,atiumd6a.cap,atitmm64.dll Driver File Version: 8.17.0010.1433 (English) Driver Version: 15.301.1901.0 DDI Version: 11 Driver Model: WDDM 1.1 Driver Attributes: Final Retail Driver Date/Size: 2/26/2016 17:00:24, 1506000 bytes WHQL Logo'd: No WHQL Date Stamp: None Device Identifier: {D7B71EE2-D50A-11CF-1576-C70ABEC2C535} Vendor ID: 0x1002 Device ID: 0x964A SubSys ID: 0x2ACD103C Revision ID: 0x0000 Driver Strong Name: oem136.inf:ATI.Mfg.NTamd64.6.1:ati2mtag_Sumo_Desktop:15.301.1901.0:pci\ven_1002&dev_964a Rank Of Driver: 00E62001 Video Accel: ModeMPEG2_A ModeMPEG2_C Deinterlace Caps: {6E8329FF-B642-418B-BCF0-BCB6591E255F}: Format(In/Out)=(YUY2,YUY2) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,1) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_PixelAdaptive {335AA36E-7884-43A4-9C91-7F87FAF3E37E}: Format(In/Out)=(YUY2,YUY2) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_BOBVerticalStretch {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(YUY2,YUY2) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY {6E8329FF-B642-418B-BCF0-BCB6591E255F}: Format(In/Out)=(UYVY,UYVY) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,1) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_PixelAdaptive {335AA36E-7884-43A4-9C91-7F87FAF3E37E}: Format(In/Out)=(UYVY,UYVY) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_BOBVerticalStretch {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(UYVY,UYVY) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(YV12,0x32315659) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps= {3C5323C1-6FB7-44F5-9081-056BF2EE449D}: Format(In/Out)=(NV12,0x3231564e) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,2) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_PixelAdaptive {552C0DAD-CCBC-420B-83C8-74943CF9F1A6}: Format(In/Out)=(NV12,0x3231564e) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,2) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_PixelAdaptive {6E8329FF-B642-418B-BCF0-BCB6591E255F}: Format(In/Out)=(NV12,0x3231564e) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,1) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_PixelAdaptive {335AA36E-7884-43A4-9C91-7F87FAF3E37E}: Format(In/Out)=(NV12,0x3231564e) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY DeinterlaceTech_BOBVerticalStretch {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(NV12,0x3231564e) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps=VideoProcess_YUV2RGB VideoProcess_StretchX VideoProcess_StretchY {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(IMC1,UNKNOWN) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps= {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(IMC2,UNKNOWN) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps= {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(IMC3,UNKNOWN) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps= {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(IMC4,UNKNOWN) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps= {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(S340,UNKNOWN) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps= {5A54A0C9-C7EC-4BD9-8EDE-F3C75DC4393B}: Format(In/Out)=(S342,UNKNOWN) Frames(Prev/Fwd/Back)=(0,0,0) Caps= D3D9 Overlay: Not Supported DXVA-HD: Not Supported DDraw Status: Enabled D3D Status: Enabled AGP Status: Enabled

Sound Devices

        Description: Speakers / Headphones (IDT High Definition Audio CODEC)

Default Sound Playback: Yes Default Voice Playback: Yes Hardware ID: HDAUDIO\FUNC_01&VEN_111D&DEV_76C7&SUBSYS_103C2ACD&REV_1001 Manufacturer ID: 1 Product ID: 100 Type: WDM Driver Name: stwrt64.sys Driver Version: 6.10.6400.0000 (English) Driver Attributes: Final Retail WHQL Logo'd: Yes Date and Size: 4/24/2012 21:38:30, 536576 bytes Other Files: Driver Provider: IDT HW Accel Level: Basic Cap Flags: 0xF1F Min/Max Sample Rate: 100, 200000 Static/Strm HW Mix Bufs: 1, 0 Static/Strm HW 3D Bufs: 0, 0 HW Memory: 0 Voice Management: No EAX(tm) 2.0 Listen/Src: No, No I3DL2(tm) Listen/Src: No, No Sensaura(tm) ZoomFX(tm): No

        Description: Digital Output (S/PDIF) (IDT High Definition Audio CODEC)

Default Sound Playback: No Default Voice Playback: No Hardware ID: HDAUDIO\FUNC_01&VEN_111D&DEV_76C7&SUBSYS_103C2ACD&REV_1001 Manufacturer ID: 1 Product ID: 100 Type: WDM Driver Name: stwrt64.sys Driver Version: 6.10.6400.0000 (English) Driver Attributes: Final Retail WHQL Logo'd: Yes Date and Size: 4/24/2012 21:38:30, 536576 bytes Other Files: Driver Provider: IDT HW Accel Level: Basic Cap Flags: 0xF1F Min/Max Sample Rate: 100, 200000 Static/Strm HW Mix Bufs: 1, 0 Static/Strm HW 3D Bufs: 0, 0 HW Memory: 0 Voice Management: No EAX(tm) 2.0 Listen/Src: No, No I3DL2(tm) Listen/Src: No, No Sensaura(tm) ZoomFX(tm): No

        Description: Communications Headphones (IDT High Definition Audio CODEC)

Default Sound Playback: No Default Voice Playback: No Hardware ID: HDAUDIO\FUNC_01&VEN_111D&DEV_76C7&SUBSYS_103C2ACD&REV_1001 Manufacturer ID: 1 Product ID: 100 Type: WDM Driver Name: stwrt64.sys Driver Version: 6.10.6400.0000 (English) Driver Attributes: Final Retail WHQL Logo'd: Yes Date and Size: 4/24/2012 21:38:30, 536576 bytes Other Files: Driver Provider: IDT HW Accel Level: Basic Cap Flags: 0xF1F Min/Max Sample Rate: 100, 200000 Static/Strm HW Mix Bufs: 1, 0 Static/Strm HW 3D Bufs: 0, 0 HW Memory: 0 Voice Management: No EAX(tm) 2.0 Listen/Src: No, No I3DL2(tm) Listen/Src: No, No Sensaura(tm) ZoomFX(tm): No

Sound Capture Devices

        Description: Microphone (Blue Snowball)

Default Sound Capture: Yes Default Voice Capture: Yes Driver Name: USBAUDIO.sys Driver Version: 6.01.7601.18208 (English) Driver Attributes: Final Retail Date and Size: 7/12/2013 06:40:58, 109824 bytes Cap Flags: 0x1 Format Flags: 0xFFFFF

        Description: Stereo Mix (IDT High Definition Audio CODEC)

Default Sound Capture: No Default Voice Capture: No Driver Name: stwrt64.sys Driver Version: 6.10.6400.0000 (English) Driver Attributes: Final Retail Date and Size: 4/24/2012 21:38:30, 536576 bytes Cap Flags: 0x1 Format Flags: 0xFFFFF

DirectInput Devices

  Device Name: Mouse
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: n/a

Vendor/Product ID: n/a FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: Keyboard
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: n/a

Vendor/Product ID: n/a FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: USB Receiver
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: 0x0

Vendor/Product ID: 0x046D, 0xC52F FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: USB Receiver
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: 0x0

Vendor/Product ID: 0x046D, 0xC52F FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: USB Receiver
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: 0x0

Vendor/Product ID: 0x046D, 0xC52F FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: USB Keyboard
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: 0x0

Vendor/Product ID: 0x04F2, 0x1060 FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: USB Keyboard
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: 0x0

Vendor/Product ID: 0x04F2, 0x1060 FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: USB Keyboard
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: 0x0

Vendor/Product ID: 0x04F2, 0x1060 FF Driver: n/a

  Device Name: Blue Snowball
     Attached: 1
Controller ID: 0x0

Vendor/Product ID: 0x0D8C, 0x0005 FF Driver: n/a

Poll w/ Interrupt: No

USB Devices

• USB Root Hub | Vendor/Product ID: 0x1022, 0x7807 | Matching Device ID: usb\root_hub | Service: usbhub | Driver: usbhub.sys, 11/26/2013 21:41:37, 343040 bytes | Driver: usbd.sys, 11/26/2013 21:41:03, 7808 bytes

Gameport Devices

PS/2 Devices

• HID Keyboard Device | Vendor/Product ID: 0x04F2, 0x1060 | Matching Device ID: hid_device_system_keyboard | Service: kbdhid | Driver: kbdhid.sys, 11/20/2010 23:23:47, 33280 bytes | Driver: kbdclass.sys, 7/13/2009 21:48:04, 50768 bytes |

• Terminal Server Keyboard Driver | Matching Device ID: root\rdp_kbd | Upper Filters: kbdclass | Service: TermDD | Driver: i8042prt.sys, 7/13/2009 19:19:57, 105472 bytes | Driver: kbdclass.sys, 7/13/2009 21:48:04, 50768 bytes |

• HID-compliant mouse | Vendor/Product ID: 0x046D, 0xC52F | Matching Device ID: hid_device_system_mouse | Service: mouhid | Driver: mouhid.sys, 7/13/2009 20:00:20, 31232 bytes | Driver: mouclass.sys, 7/13/2009 21:48:27, 49216 bytes |

• Terminal Server Mouse Driver | Matching Device ID: root\rdp_mou | Upper Filters: mouclass | Service: TermDD | Driver: termdd.sys, 11/20/2010 23:23:47, 63360 bytes | Driver: sermouse.sys, 7/13/2009 20:00:20, 26624 bytes | Driver: mouclass.sys, 7/13/2009 21:48:27, 49216 bytes

DirectShow Filters

DirectShow Filters: WMAudio Decoder DMO,0x00800800,1,1,WMADMOD.DLL,6.01.7601.17514 WMAPro over S/PDIF DMO,0x00600800,1,1,WMADMOD.DLL,6.01.7601.17514 WMSpeech Decoder DMO,0x00600800,1,1,WMSPDMOD.DLL,6.01.7601.17514 MP3 Decoder DMO,0x00600800,1,1,mp3dmod.dll,6.01.7600.16385 Mpeg4s Decoder DMO,0x00800001,1,1,mp4sdecd.dll,6.01.7600.16385 WMV Screen decoder DMO,0x00600800,1,1,wmvsdecd.dll,6.01.7601.17514 WMVideo Decoder DMO,0x00800001,1,1,wmvdecod.dll,6.01.7601.18221 Mpeg43 Decoder DMO,0x00800001,1,1,mp43decd.dll,6.01.7600.16385 Mpeg4 Decoder DMO,0x00800001,1,1,mpg4decd.dll,6.01.7600.16385 Multiple File Output,0x00200000,2,2,WMM2FILT.dll,6.00.6002.18005 WMT Import Filter,0x00200000,0,1,WMM2FILT.dll,6.00.6002.18005 DV Muxer,0x00400000,0,0,qdv.dll,6.06.7601.17514 Color Space Converter,0x00400001,1,1,quartz.dll,6.06.7601.18741 WMT Interlacer,0x00200000,1,1,WMM2FILT.dll,6.00.6002.18005 WM ASF Reader,0x00400000,0,0,qasf.dll,12.00.7601.17514 Screen Capture 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NOTE: I mean nothing bad or offensive about this subreddit (or about therapy), nor am I saying that communities like this are a perfect substitute for therapy. The title simply speaks to how we need a place to converge with other depressed/anxious gamers because our problems are sometimes esoteric and/or difficult to understand for people who aren't gamers.

I just had a mild panic attack (not nearly the worst I've ever had, but still bad) because I lost the 31st ranked game I played in NBA 2K16. I'm now 30-1.

My therapist told me that when things make me anxious or give me panic attacks, I should try positive self-talk. Tell myself that things aren't really as bad as they feel, and that whatever happened wasn't a tragedy, and explain to myself why (without letting any negative thoughts creep in, so as to avoid debating with myself). I concentrate best when I write things, so I typed this (for context, I use the Golden State Warriors exclusively):

30-1 is an amazing record. You won 30 consecutive games. You use the Broadcast camera and no shot meter/feedback, which puts you at a disadvantage (or at least doesn't give you an advantage that many people use). You've beaten almost all of your opponents handily. Your defense has been amazing. Even against the Spurs, Kawhi had to hit an improbable buzzer-beating three at the end of the first quarter, and Parker hit one as well at the end of the third because you were distracted by making subs. You didn't have Stephen Curry, and you still had a chance (with less than 2 minutes left) against one of the best teams in the NBA. Once again, 30-1 is amazing. It would be the best start to a season in NBA history and the second-longest winning streak of all time.

This seems like something I'd share with my therapist. But she's 50 years old. In this context, I doubt she'd be able to relate to me or my emotional state to the extent that I need her to. I can't show her what I wrote above, because she simply wouldn't get it. She's not familiar with this culture. She can't really judge if I'm handling the situation properly (like, for example, whether or not this is good positive self-talk) because she wouldn't understand, in detail, what I'm talking about.

Am I wrong about any of this? If so, why?

Thank you.

The title says it all. Help, I've spent over $600 on her. Her name is Minami Kotori from LoveLive! /shrug

First, thank you for reading this. I don't have an outlet to pour my emotion into, so I'm glad this sub is there for me.

This Trump thing is stressing me out. I mean, really stressing me out. I fear that his presidency will lead to fascism. I have nightmares about nuclear bombs detonating. I have seriously become obsessed with this thing. I feel like I have a responsibility to do something about it. So far I've only donated to the ACLU, but I do plan to write my congressmen as soon as I catch up with my math homework.

My obsession is drawing me to defend the truth on Facebook posts. Whenever I see something of suspect, I immediately fact check it and politely let that person know they may be spreading false information. Yesterday I came to a Trump supporter's defense because somebody arrogantly asked her where she got her info, then proceeded to voice incorrect facts that supported her biased view. I told my Trump friend that I am not a Trump supporter, but I am a fact supporter. We need the truth no more than ever no matter what side we are on. She thanked me for my support and we had a wonderfully civil conversation following.

Today however, a liberal friend of mine shared a post with horribly incorrect facts. It was aimed at being positive showing the progress we had made fighting against Trump's administration. It had a list of about 8 items. I was only able to verify 2. The fact that the ACLU raised 24 mil, and that people with green cards were not banned.

One of the false facts was that the whitehouse.gov had reinstated the EPA webpage. I did a google search and found they moved it to the obamawhitehouse.gov page. I specifically mentioned that the controversy was that the page was deleted from whitehouse.gov. He claimed he did a google search and he found several articles that said otherwise. I asked him to link me the page, and he said, "I don't have to." He told me to that he got info from a very trusted friend, and that was his source. He asked me never to correct his facts ever again. I replied the same way I did with my other friend. "I am not a Trump supporter, but I am a fact supporter." I told him we've ostracized the right for spreading fake news. We have to be weary not to do it ourselves. I asked him to give me a call because I feel that Facebook debates are futile, an ear to ear conversation, where one can actually listen would be much more digestive.

He politely declined and explained that "fact correction" goes beyond his intent. I asked myself, "What is your intent then? To lie? To mislead? Aren't we just like them if we do that?" I didn't say that because that would be rude and pointless. He asked me not to be offended for deleting my comments. I told him I wouldn't, but I am deeply saddened by it.

I guess that was my first taste of real confirmation bias from my side. Its incredibly hypocritical to spread false news while at the same time lambasting others that do the same thing. I was only trying to encourage him not stoop to their level.

This event only added to the overwhelming fear I already have regarding the Trump presidency. To see that we are all victims of spreading lies troubles me to a great extent. It fills me of little hope for the survival of humanity.

Edit: I'm not looking for confirmation of my political views. In fact dont even mention them as this would likely feed my compulsion. This obsession, this fear is seriously affecting me. It's causing great anxiety and depression. I'm simply looking for an outlet to express my emotion.

This will be just a random amount of words that come to me. Gamers fighting Depression. Gamers suffering depression. Gamers.

A tip to you if you play lots of videos games and suffer depression: Stop playing video games. Seriously. Games warp you sense of reality, your perception of it. Games provide an "out". This poster has pissed me off since the first time I've seen it. It encourages you to keep escaping your life into these other ones.

Life is hard. Life is difficult, it's harsh. Life is not meant to be nice. You are not entitled to success. You need to earn it.

There are multiple reasons why you may be/are depressed. One of those will definitely be because you are not seeing good things in your life. You may be failing in school, at work, in your relationships, so you play games to achieve something in a small amount of time. That's why WoW has so many players and why Blizzard is dumbing down the game, no more 40-man raids. Because 40-mans are hard, so they will make it easier with 10 man, with PUGS. People (especially the new generation "millennials") want that hit of good chemicals in their brain when they win, or succeed, but they don't want to work for it.

And games provide exactly that.

Also why TV shows and movies are such popular forms of entertainment, why Netflix is so damn popular; because you can binge an entire series, you can watch a whole season in 1 day without having to wait 1 week for the next episode. Binging allows you to completely enter into that world and immerse yourself in it, with its characters, its story, its drama.

Stop all of that. Seriously.

Life itself is a video game, if you actually stop and think about it. Life is literally a game, just a tangible one, instead of being on your screen (intangible).

The easiest and fastest way you can begin to win at life is to come to terms with and learn to overcome failure. That's why all the business coaches/etc teach that if your first business fails, start another one. That's why all the pick up artists preach religiously to approach many women, because most of them will reject your approach. Failure is beautiful, failure teaches. Failure teaches better than success because people have, for quadrillions of years, learned better through pain, than through pleasure, they learn better and they learn faster.

So, games. Games are entertainment, something to do if you have absolutely nothing else to do, and only sparingly.

Go out there, and live your life, the actual game (and the most rewarding if you play your cards right).

I'm talking all this shit, but I assure you I have been in a depression for many years myself, and don't get me wrong, I'm not enlightened and happy now, I'm just not necessarily depressed. I'm working for it, I'm finding myself, I'm moving through life.

I don't have a xbox/PS4 and when I did, I literally turned them on to download the latest free-to-download game of the month and then turn the console off. I bought a MAC recently because I will sell my PC soon (this is just me personally) as I'm not interested in games any more. I still browse reddit like a religious nut which I'm also working on cutting back.

Go out there guys, lift weights, eat healthy, make money, bang chicks. Medicine will help you make yourself physically more attractive such as braces for your teeth, laser eye surgery, skin treatments/etc. It's not the end. But don't just sit behind your screen playing games, as you are getting nowhere in life and time is whizzing past you at astronomical speeds. You ain't getting any younger.

aiight I'm out.

Azzy#7435

Kind of just wish I had someone to hangout with. Feel free to add me on steam. http://steamcommunity.com/id/Strideftw/

im 19 and my sr is 1203. im so lonly, my Battle Tag is IWantToDie#11449

Hi. I'm Jay. I deal a lot with depression and God knows what else. Either way my mental health really affects my gameplay or willingness to play sometimes. I'm tired of being grouped with people who expect me to perform at my best, which is mid tier average, all the time. I get flamed a lot by "friends" for making stupid mistakes. I only want to play to have fun but will always try my very best. Also my old group has gone down a rabbit hole of toxicity and I'm trying to not bring negativity in my gaming experience, to me or other people on my team.

I mostly play overwatch and Apex. Im a flex player but am really a filthy Mercy main deep down. I have FF XIV but kinda scared about delving deep into that alone. I also have OG Dark Souls and 3 (never finished them but watched tons of gameplay lmao). I'm really down to play whatever honestly and sometimes I enjoy sitting in a party with ppl while playing single player games. I have a habit of starting games over and over but never really finishing them (ahem Skyrim)

Also if you're any form of bigoted then please let's just save time and not even chat.

Also again I DID have an XBOX and plan to get another one. I'm thinking of getting a PC as well.

My insta is punknuggy if you want to put a face to me I guess. I don't post much though.

Have you ever seen that picture from its always sunny in philadelphia, with danny devito saying "I don't like this painting, its smug aura mocks me", that is basically me in regards to Steam's Summer Sale. To me SSS is like a carrot in front of a horse's face. And just like the horse I'll never catch that carrot.

It isn't steam's fault tho, In my country we have worst currency control system ever. It's freaking oppressive. You need to jump through all these bureaucratic hoops just to be allowed to use your own money and even then is just 300$... a year. And even more then, you have no guarantee of actually getting them. For the last 3 years I've tried to get them, and for the last three years I've got to the end of the year without any news of them, and having to start the process again the following year.

Thats why I hate SSS, I know I have the money to buy these games! But its so frustrating to just have them there, like products behind a glass window, just because of some Idiot in the government doesn't want us to have financial independence.

Its such a stupid reason to not be able to buy something, specially now.

I made many friends on black ops 2 today and we played lots of gun game, had a fun explosives only match, played some snd with each other. A few hours later they aren't accepting my party requests so I joined their games while they were in progress, in one lobby the guy kept on telling me that I was being clingy but I just joined his session. Another guy was playing with a team and I was split onto the other team, he said he wouldn't back out to pick me up (even though the lobby we were playing in was toxic).

This happens all the time, I always have 15 people online at all times and none want to play with me. I need people to play with.

If you want to play any cod game, I really like the black ops series and zombies. If you also play both multilayer and zombies add me on Xbox 360, my gamer tag is brad is a scrub

I know a bunch of people got the game early from an eshop mistake, so pretty much everything is public already, but I have a review copy of Color Splash and for the moment I'm allowed to stream 20 minutes of it. So, if you're interested, I'll be doing that tonight on http://twitch.tv/linkums at 6pm EST. And since 20 minutes is hardly any time, I'll most likely continue streaming something else afterward. Splatoon or Mario Maker probably. See you there! :D

Edit: If you missed it and want to watch the highlight, here you go: https://www.twitch.tv/linkums/v/91426691

A lot of the time these days I just don't have the energy or desire to actually play anything, despite being an enthusiast for 30 years. I was starting to panic and obsess about how my only hobby was boring me and I thought I was done with gaming.

Recently though I've discovered that just watching other people play (and chat shit whilst they do) is immensely satisfying. Hearing their perspectives and watching how they do things differently, it reminded me of why I enjoy games so much.

Im not talking about big youtubers or Let's Players with massive audiences like that horrendous tool PewDiePie, but just random channels with people playing video games and providing a commentary. I enjoy doing it myself too (yknow, when the crippling anxiety and general doom n' gloom isn't getting in the way).

So, anyone in here got a stream? I'd like to check it out if you do, and I don't care what types of games you play, I'll watch anything. Also if anyone is up for multilayer on PSN or steam anytime then hit me up:

Steam - f00 PSN - Wilkinshire

When I do it, my own stream is here. I'll be sucking at Rainbow 6 Siege later on this evening if anyone fancies a laugh.

TL;DR - link your streams! (but never cross the streams)

Because they're always wrapped up in stuff! No? Okay.

Anyway...Hi! I'm Mei, a 19 year old woman from Germany, though I was born in Japan, while my parents are of mixed descent. And because I have asian parents, I'm on my way to become a doctor. :]

I'm writing here because I'd like to make some online friends & have some people to talk to and/or chill with. I'm always open to the possibility of more, but forcing it ruins it. If something sparks between us, great! If not, let's still stay as friends and have a good time together. And if we don't work out as friends, no hard feelings! Some people just aren't meant to be, being negative does nothing but ruin the vibes.

I'd call myself a social extrovert. I'm very socially active, I love talking & chatting & hanging out & being around people etc. Also a huge fan of the spotlight. Give me all of your attention, ALL OF IT! I'm a pretty flirty person aswell (this doesn't mean I want to see your dick & be your sub), & pretty openly sexual/perverted (again, don't want to see your dicks). Very blunt, very straightforward. I say what I feel, most of the time. Besides that I'm pretty charismatic & charming~. I'm always pretty much fully energetic and enthusastic, which you'll be able to notice very fast once we chat, due my excessive amount of emojis & me typing at full speeds. I'm also a horrible liar. I can't lie, I wear my emotions on my face. I'm the type to say "this is the tea" & "uwu" unironically. Part-time art hoe, part time skate-hoe, full time animeme queen.

I'll list my hobbies/interests in bullet points here:

• Video Games (League of Legends, Overwatch & Street Fighter)

• Art (Photography, Drawing, etc.)

• Music (Rap & HipHop, but I love any genre tbh. Lana Del Ray, Billie Eilish & Kanye West are my fav atm.)

• Netflix (Just finished Friends, now too sad to watch anything else.)

• Psychology

• Biology

• Philosophy

• Fashion

• Clubbing/Dancing/etc.

• Watching TikToks/Vines to fill the empty void inside of me

Preferrably I'd like someone who's more the indoors-shy-guy-type. An introvert, basically. Someone that doesn't take away the spotlight from me, and who enjoys someone taking the "pressure" of attention off of them. I believe that love functions very much like Ying & Yang, two opposites make a complete. I want someone who I can relate to, but who's also not exactly me. Someone to send my spotify playlist to and gush over how dope Frank Ocean is, or play league of legends with, and maybe fall asleep at night listening to the same songs. I know this all sounds super serious but I assure you, I'm a very relaxed & chill person! I have serious thoughts about serious topics & don't mind being super "deep" & meaningful. But I enjoy just being chill & funny, too! Laughing over dumb tiny stuff & whatnot. Though keep in mind I'm still only 19, and my interests and beliefs are bound to change. I'm still trying to create myself!

If any of this appeals to you, feel free to drop me a PM with an introduction about yourself and your discord! I think reddit chats/pms are completely abyssmal. No kik/skype/etc.

I really strongly prefer people in my timezone/region. Nothing against you NA fellas, y'all a snack and cute af. But the timezones & the differences in ping in games will probably ruin it.

So porn may be affecting my life in a negative way. This may seem strange and wierd to all of you, but I masturbate to gay furry porn. Porn where anthropomorphic animal characters have sex and other fetish art. I feel like I experience this a little differently though since I picture myself as one of the characters in the porn as i'm masturbating to it. I've masturbated to this about two or three times a day and my mom brought up that I may have a porn addiction. I've always complained about masturbating because I felt like I was wasting my time with it since i'm unmotivated to experience any new games or movies. I've also felt that it changed my behavior when playing a game. I tend to get very upset if I have a hard time beating a boss or something took me more time than usual. Right now I decided to stop masturbating for a while and I've noticed that i'm feeling a little better. I feel less afraid of playing a game and facing it's certain challenges. I do know furries that play games while they have an interest in gay furry porn. Maybe it just doesn't suit me well enough? I am not sure. It makes me a little sad to give up on sexual pleasure. But I have to stop if it's effecting my life in a negative way.

I know this is not a video game, as I try to play less and less of. I was playing the keyboard (piano) and I kept making the same mistake. Same mistake 10s of times in a roll. It's as if Im sleeping. Every time I make the same mistake, I "wake up" and get angry at myself for making the same mistake as I just did 5 seconds ago. I play through it fine when I'm able to think while I play. Ugh.

Edit:
Vent #2: My family came home and brought back me takeout. I asked them where they got it they said they were having dinner at this place. I was like WTF you didn't invite me??? They said they asked me but I said I didn't want to go. WTF? I have absolutely no memory of this. I only remember getting out of my room and no one was at home and I was like "wtf where's everyone?"

Your wife is more important than your video games. If your wife wants an hour to hold your hand and watch tv with you, don't roll your eyes and say, 'i can still play my game. you're sitting beside me that's spending time together.' if you have a hour before work before you'll leave for six hours and want to come over and watch tv together for a half hour... don't sigh in frustration when you have to turn your video game off. when you know you'll play it when you get home. Don't play video games when you wake up, before lunch, when you get home from work and before bed. Please spend time with your wife/ or husband. Please value you're time. Make it quality time. Don't make it 10 minutes while your game is in 'idle'/pause mode. Make your wife feel as important as your video games. You're video games will always be there. I might not be.

edit: i'm feeling sad and i post here trying to give advice. and i get down voted... :"(