Her name was Sofis. She was from Portugal. Didn't really know much else about her. She added me because she was having a hard time going through some shit. We played dota together. She lost her battle with depression. It was a couple months back apparently, I didn't really know her that well, but enjoyed playing dota with her. She was funny. Please, you are not alone. Talk to someone. Even if it is a complete stranger on the internet. Who cares. They aren't going to judge you. You are never going to meet that person. Chances are there is someone going through the exact same situation as you are. I love you, whoever you are, You are not alone.

Hey all, just wanted to give a bit of background since I'm new here.

SO when I was 13 I watched my father kill himself, sent myself into a whirlwind...was angry, depressed, sad, just didn't know what the point of life was.

I discovered EverQuest.

The people I met on there, amazing. Helped me keep on keeping on. Baseball during the day, EQ when I got home, couldn't beat it as a kid. Gaming helped me really escape, get away, be someone else for a little bit. Which I needed! Fast forward to my deployment in Iraq....finally was in a good spot, I'm doing something with my life, making a difference. And Boom..right back to where I was when I was 13. This time gaming didn't help. I realized when you get older and things aren't working out, escaping doesn't really help solve the issues you have going on in your noggin. When you're a kid, you have no worries other than, school, sports, games. Now as an adult...I was thrown into a whole new hurricane of emotions. My bills need paid, what the hell did I do when I was over there....Morally I was torn.

After a year of drinking my sorrows away, the friends I made helped me get through it. Talking to a professional helped me get through it. The thing that helped best though....a normal ass sleeping pattern. Try it...I promise it'll help. I had to go to bed, wake up, and give my self a purpose to keep going. You have to want it. No matter what the chemicals in your brain are telling you, at the end of the day, you need to want it. Force yourself, exercise, set goals, reach them.

The escape I found as an adult, made reality worse. Until I got better, gaming was a chore, not a fun hobby.

Guess I lost the point of my post there. But everything that needed to be said was said. If any of you need any advice, PM me here, I'm not saying I"m an expert, and I'm not saying I have all of the answers. But what I have is experience.

Games I play currently.

Wow, EQ, CoD:BO3(ps4), FFXIV(PS4/pc) and some other randoms.

I hope you all have a good day, thanks for listening =)

Edit: Thank you all for sharing your stories, and getting behind each other!

PSN: jhop7002 : COD:BO3, ESO, FFXIV, Destiny a ton of others. Add me!

And on PC I have EverQuest, EverQuest 2, Star Wars: The Old Republic and others.

Your wife is more important than your video games. If your wife wants an hour to hold your hand and watch tv with you, don't roll your eyes and say, 'i can still play my game. you're sitting beside me that's spending time together.' if you have a hour before work before you'll leave for six hours and want to come over and watch tv together for a half hour... don't sigh in frustration when you have to turn your video game off. when you know you'll play it when you get home. Don't play video games when you wake up, before lunch, when you get home from work and before bed. Please spend time with your wife/ or husband. Please value you're time. Make it quality time. Don't make it 10 minutes while your game is in 'idle'/pause mode. Make your wife feel as important as your video games. You're video games will always be there. I might not be.

edit: i'm feeling sad and i post here trying to give advice. and i get down voted... :"(

Might be a strange sounding title, but I feel like other people may do this as well so I'll explain myself here.

I'm depressed af and all I do all day is play video games. But, I make jokes about my depression to my friends and to strangers in game pretty often.

Like when I'm playing Guild Wars 2 and just farming, I'll pop some "Haha guys this loot almost fills the expansive void of depression that is slowly consuming my life and destroying any sense of fulfillment I've ever had" or something idfk, and usually people find it funny because "haha wow that was dark but there's no way he's serious".

I find that when I joke about my problems, it serves as a way of venting, and in a way makes them feel less serious. When I jokingly say something horrible that I feel in game to people, it makes my problems seem so absurd and silly that I can't take them seriously for a bit.

So I guess jokes and games are my escapism or something. Just wondering if anyone else does this.

Hello I am /u/Throwaway_4_opinions, Creator and moderator of /r/Gaming4Gamers. Every month We try to highlighta gaming subreddit that we feel provides a great gaming community and represents the best reddit can offer, and this month /r/GFD has been selected.

This one is a bit more personal than other ones that we have awarded in the past as I have had personal issues of depression myself. Having a community like this one is a great idea and I am sure no easy effort for the moderators who work on this page tirelessly.

When awarded you are given a few cool things. Firstly on our page for the duration of the month we showcase this cool banner in our sidebar so more people can know about it. We also make you a personalized alien and this month we have quite a few in both pixel art and vector. http://imgur.com/a/6YSI9

Anyway congratulations and keep up the good work. Play together, Stay Together!

I've noticed that sometimes I buy things like movies and especially video games just so I can feel some sort of happiness or excitement. I know it's a bad habit. I just don't really have much other excitement in my life so the useless shit usually fills the void.

This is another post about a significant other that turned my life upside down.

After graduating college it took me a while to find a job so I worked at a restaurant to pay the bills. This is where I met my now ex gf. We hit it off like it was a damn Nicholas Sparks movie. I had no idea a girl could be into and know so much about games and other things I am into. We dated for about 4 years...then she left me out of the blue this past October for someone else. I will be the first to tell you this was something I did NOT see coming. We were crazy happy (or so I thought) together. We moved in together after a year and bought a fucking house this past August! Then a couple months later she started playing Terreria with some of my friends and her friends. One of her friends told her an old high school friend plays this game and she should reach out to him and she did. Now I am used to her playing games and having dudes hit on a girl who plays games, we all do it. So for about a week and a half when she played with this new guy on Terraria, they would talk over skype after they would play, for hours. I didn't know, I thought they were just talking about the game and catching up. Little did i know she "fell in love" with him after almost 2 weeks. She told me she was leaving me and that she never truly loved me all these years. She said she stayed with me because I was so happy and she thought I deserved to be happy. WTF? wha.... why. Why....it's what I ask myself everyday. We shared animes together, Korean Dramas, Star Wars/ Star Trek debates. I was going to propose to her this year. I have taken the first step in getting a roommate for my empty house (which she is still on the damn mortgage), and have joined the YMCA to work out 5 days a week since November. I feel like sometimes it might be ok but the nights scare me. I hear these songs about breakups and they speak to my soul and I just fucking lose it. I have nightmares about it and I hate the fact she will forever haunt me. What else can I do?

I don't really know how to explain this, but It feels like time flies by without me actually doing anything at all. I just seem to go on reddit, go out for walks, switch on a game for a bit and before I know it it's 12AM and I feel like I have to go to bed. I can set myself a schedule or tell myself when I'm gonna do something but I just don't get round to it. I don't even mean homework or studying, just anything. Watching TV or drawing, I just don't do it. I want to, but I don't. Am I just lazy or is this a problem for other people? It makes me feel really bad either way. Sorry if this post is really long, and thanks for making this community. I've needed somewhere I can speak my mind for ages. Family and friends just don't seem to understand me.

That's pretty much the news, but I wanted to tell someone. I've had a girlfriend before, but it's easy to lose hope when you feel like you aren't worth dating. Even if it doesn't go beyond friendship with this girl, at least she remembers me enough to actually send me a message. :3

I'm confused, I was talking to this user for a while and she was pretty on the edge about being suicidal.

She was talking to one of the admins in support 3, then ends up banned? She's told me she didn't get a warning, didn't get a message from the bot, and the friends she had in staff have removed her from their friends list.

I'm a bit confused like...Did this chick seriously just get banned from your community / server for utilizing services that YOU provide?

EDIT: So now that I've got an understanding...

1 ) She wasn't "shadow banned" she was banned for being deemed "colorful" and to much to handle. I will elaborate more in point 3, but essentially her discussion in the Support channel was deemed as "attention seeking" and "guilt tripping".

2 ) Her past in two servers where she was sexually harassed and bullied / stalked was somehow bought into question despite upon her first day of joining and being recognized by a stalked she was told by "zorro" that they were NOT aware of this nor keeping "intel" like this. They basically lied and admitted to her they do have information on her that they refused to disclose. This is illegal.

3 ) A User, by the name Kippy or Klippy? Something like that, she described his profile picture to me and I remember seeing his name around. Had DM'd her, asked for a specific picture, then sent it to staff complaining about her DM'ing him a "concerning image" (A gun she had referenced owning) and attempting to guilt trip and "seek attention" from him. This was not the case, for whatever reason this user decided to completely bait her into posting an image in DM then using it against her. This same user also was present when she was kicked for 24 hours by responding to a comment made by him. She now believes this user is part of the Two servers / small circle of people who have previously harassed her online.

4 ) This is absolutely horrible, the response from staff basically circle jerking with "We aren't professionals." and "We gave her links." isn't relevant at all. You market yourselves proudly as a mental health server that fights depression, but when someone on the verge of losing their battle comes to you on their knees you openly go out of your ways to just toss them aside and label them as "colorful" and "problematic" based off an issue in which they (the user in question here) had to get the police involved due to potential doxxing. When she came to GFD and was told / discovered one of these people was IN the server, she was muted, belittled, and told by Zorro and other staff that they "couldn't do anything" and that "no one had given them information about her." This was a flat out lie.

I'm without a doubt leaving this community and going to attempt to get whoever hands out Discord Partnerships to look into this...this is absolutely NOT how a discord partnered server should be operating.

EDIT #2

I'd like to add a Point #5

5 ) You are taking someone who you KNOW / KNEW works with children and twisting them into being some violent behavioral concern for people. This is extremely dangerous knowing that someone on your server is part of a group of people in mental health servers who have doxxed her before. You have literally just given these people material that could absolutely impact her ability to work and find work. This is just another point about how dangerously careless you've handled this situation...allowing people who she warned you about to manipulate her post and intentions into this weird sociopolitical violent personality is insane, like legitimately dangerous and I hope you realize this and make some sort of statement to how fucking reckless you handled this.

Last Edit : You people are fucking psychopaths...This entire situation contradicts the purpose of your server...suicidal woman talking to zorro (admin) for help, you claim she was guilt tripping people in DM when from the screenshots I was shown by her, the guy DM'd her first ASKING bait tier questions? All of this happens AFTER She warns you someone in the server is part of a group of people who used to doxx her and she had previously filed a police report again? You just compromised someone's physical and mental safety in favor of putting your meaningless fucking server rules first. You had her Discord disabled, her email made public to her abusers, and her access to mental health support groups revoked. You're like...actually shitty people, every single one of you mods who sat on their high horse telling her "Oh the Rules though! The Rules, the Rules, the rules!" I legitimately don't know what to say other than you're actually psychopaths who are playing dangerous games with actually mental ill people who you claim to be here for when you're not.

Hey everyone. A year ago my wife and I got a divorce. I honestly blame it on the fact that I let my depression continue to spiral out of control (i know is my fault). When my wife told me she was leaving me my depression was too massive to control on my own and I ended up coming here! You all allowed me to vent, talked to me when i was at my worst and gave me all the guidance I needed.

Its insane how much your world can change in a year. When i was married I didnt have any friends besides my wife but now i have 20 or 30 great people that i regularly hang out with and I know 100% that theyre for me and have my back.

I now have a relationship with my family! While I was married I basically was forced to choose my wife or my family. I regretfully chose my wife.

I quit my job and I now work with my friends at a growing IT company. I actually wake up everyday excited to go to work!

I still have bouts with anxiety and depression but I have a way better grasp on everything and can usually bring myself back down.

Ive tried dating twice (maybe too soon) but i now know what i need in a relationship and i know how i need to communicate what i want. when i felt like the relationship wouldnt work I knew to end it and how to properly end it. Im a much better person!

Life is actually going pretty well.

I wanted to share all this to let you know that i have been there! and it really does get better! Take my word for it.

1.)There's other fish in the sea! 2.) You can get a new job! 3.) You matter 4.) Youre strong enough to handle whatever it is! But people are here if you need some back up

Love you GFD kev

press play and then instantly lose all motivation and turn it off and go back to their bed

I have always turned to the solace of gaming to pull me through rough times.

It's amazing to see the community come together for a cause like this, mental health is extremely important and the fact that relative strangers are supporting each other is beautiful. Good job internet, you did a good!

I just realised this today. I have no friends where i live apart from a few and I have nothing going on for me and im just tired of looking for a reason to do anything.

I grew up with a lot of undiagnosed mental health issues and autism so I was pretty much an outcast at my private school. My autism was diagnosed at 3 but no one told me I was autistic until I was 24 so I never got the proper help for it. Patrick was in my carpool from 1-7th grade (we went to private school) and he was my only friend for my majority of the time there. We hung out at least once a week for 7 years to play video games, airsoft, and stomp around in the creek. His favourite games were the Splinter Cell trilogy, Prince of Persia trilogy, Soul Calibur II and Metroid Prime. I have them all on my PC except for SCII and I am going to play them soon so I can remember playing them for the first time with him but it's just hard to bring myself to do it. I want to do a stream of them or something to raise money for suicide prevention. Anyway I'm kind of not able to write/talk well right now but I just wanted to say that if anyone needs someone to talk to or someone to game with I'm available. My Steam name is dictatorkara. I have one of those stupid targeted advertising T-shirts as my profile pic and one of the Whoa Dude backgrounds from the recent sale badge crafting. I'm especially into Dark Souls right now so I am always up for some co-op boss killing.