I'm so bored with life. Sometimes it feels like I lived what I had to and that's it. I'm 32. Got no friends, no social life. Nothing gets me excited no more. I'm not that talkative either. I just don't feel the desire of living like I used to. I was full of life, full of love. I never met anyone. Whatever love I used to feel for family, friends, or someone I liked is all gone. I wake up and think here we go again. I'm not suicidal, but I kind of wouldn't mind if something happened and that was it. I just don't see the point of life no more 😅

What age when you told people your age or just based off looking at you did they stop calling you young.

Lol, I don’t know why I’m making this a post

(22f) I went through a series of traumatic deaths from age of 15 to 18 and it messed me up pretty bad. I was able to make friends but my issues got the best of me at times and I lost my highschool best friend and then later my college best friend. Feeling mega chud and shameful. I had been in cbt therapy for four years but just began emdr to address my deeper issues. Any advice? I beat myself up pretty bad over it and I just want to forgive myself and move on.

Tomorrow is my birthday and finally I will be an adult, feeling little bit nervous about my adult life. Tell me what should be my primary responsibility as adult??

I’m a 52 year old married woman with a decent but stressful job. Parents that I’m close to. Close friends. No kids (which sometimes gets to me), normal middle class life. I’ve become infatuated with a guy I found on YouTube. I don’t sleep well and have anxiety and always scrolling for relaxing things (sound bowls and relaxing voices) this guy popped up and something made me click on him. He is an ASMRist. I liked his voice and thought he was cute. It’s was nothing at first to me because I’ve listened to other voices of men that I thought were cute and didn’t give it a second thought.

This guy was different though. Something about his face and smile and just seemed more intelligent than others. So funny also. I had a few dreams about which started the spiral. I sent him an email just complementing his work. Then the emails kept going but it would take him a week or 2 to respond each time. Nothing intimate at all. Just talking about music and movies, I told him about my life (nothing too personal). My emails were long and his replies were also but I can also tell a lot of it was him using ChatGPT and filling in some of his own words and interests. Adding in emoji smiley face and hearts. His following isn’t huge at all (although some videos have a lot of views) so I am pretty sure it’s him responding since his tone and words sometimes sound like how he talks in his videos but also a lot of help from ChatGPT or Gmail AI replies. I’m embarrassed to say I asked him to make a personal video for me (I wouldn’t have even thought about it but saw someone else ask in comments to one of his videos). He was happy to and I paid him….no it was not sexual. Just calming. And now I can’t even bring myself to watch it anymore. Don’t want to hear my name said.

At this point I can’t stop thinking about him and check for new videos, his replies to my comments and to other commenters constantly. I check my emails for his replies constantly. Also he is in his 30’s. I don’t usually find younger men attractive anymore.

Please no judgment. I guess I l’m trying to find a way to get over this. Just stopping it all together is probably the only way? I more interested in the psychological part of it. Why is this happening and why THIS guy? What is it about him. Maybe he reminds me of someone. Maybe I knew him in another life (not that I actually believe that but some do and I can’t rule out anything). I’ve been married for 18 years and my husband isn’t into me or really much of anything. It’s not a new thing so I don’t think that is what all of a sudden caused this when it isn’t like me. Maybe it’s perimenopause? I’m not an overly sexual person but I can’t stop thinking about this guy. He presents himself as ambiguous and said he is bi and single without actually saying it in his videos). He has many more men followers than women. I have no idea what his real personality is either. He has videos where he is supposed to be himself but it could still be him acting. I’ve had celeb crushes and crushes on people I knew in real life but nothing like this. I’ve been feeling more mentally and physically sick since this also. Been going on since August.
And I highly doubt he is really that interested in taking to me. He asks me questions but are they him or what ChatGPT is giving him. Is he thinking I’m pathetic but just engaging with me to keep me as a subscriber?

And finally, my friend who is a good detective bet me she could find his real identity. (To hopefully help me get over it). She did find him the other day. It’s crazy that’s she did. But he is married to a beautiful woman and they seem to have a perfect life. His whole vibe is different in his real life pics. Like kind of a nerdy. Online he is sexy, with over the top performances(some a bit suggestive) even when he says he’s being himself. And seems to be someone you would definitely wonder if he is was into men or women, or both. (Not saying him being married to a woman doesn’t mean he is not into both). But it was almost devastating to find this out.

My parents never taught me how to properly clean, I lived basically my entire childhood in a pig sty. It was literally disgusting. When I turned 18 I moved out and now I'm 20 and realized I don't know how to clean. Like obviously I know how to do laundry, sweep, mop, take out the trash, etc. But how do I deep clean? When do I use microfiber rags vs normal rags? What chemicals do I use and where? And how do you clean the sides of the tub and sink without getting tons of water everywhere?

I've tried youtube and tiktok and I can't really find any videos that go deep into depth on how to really clean. Every video I watch is all the same: pick up trash, sweep, mop, fold laundry, blah blah. Like yeah I know what order to clean things in but HOW?

I am aware this post will almost definitely get a lot of comments calling me incompetent, but please have some grace. I grew up in a very neglected home and I'm trying to improve little by little every day.

I mean the kind where pain is inevitable.

Where any attempt to avoid the topic altogether only brought it into your life with much more terror.

Those who are on the other side of the lesson- pls shed light on how it feels to be wise now, did those scars make you proud?

I was looking in the mirror this morning. I looked at my face and wondered - who am I? I came from a toxic family, and life wasn't very kind to me. However, when I am away from family, I'm more outgoing, chatty, and take time to listen to problems. However, when at the house, I'm withdrawn and quiet. I paused today to ask, who am I and which version is the real me? Does anyone else out there facing this issue? There are no right or wrong answers. Just a matter of perspective.

I've been struggling mentally for several months. Recently, things became particularly difficult, and I reached out to my friends because I needed someone to talk to.I have only two friends I feel close enough to approach for emotional support.

I called my friend A last week and we spoke for around 10 minutes before I could tell her what was happening she told she'll text me later.The same thing happened again yesterday when I called my friend B because my brain has been fried. I explicitly told both of my friends that wasn't doing well mentally before and during the call, also I need little help. Even I texted my friends but still nothing... I Get Nothing.

After this incident I texted them 15 mins ago that I was hurt that even when I asked for help, you guys didn't and I feel like am begging to be cared. My friend A reply saying "i is busy too and I am the same situation too. I feel I do not have anybody to lean on, I am sorry I can't fix that and chose to keep distant. I been feeling lonely and I don't want anyone to listen or be there for me.Hope you heal soon that's all I wish and pray for"

Lol... I literally laughed at this message cuz I found it so ridiculous but sure at least she is being honest.i don't know how to feel about this situation or handle it.

Give me some advice.

Hey everyone in my previous job I got fired for a very minor unintentional mistake despite being called a good performer by my boss and now I have started a new job as an intern and its been just a week and almost everyday some mistake is pointed out even tho I try my best to do things right and I am afraid that I will get fired from here too.

I’m 25 yrs old and i think i need to move out before resentment starts and i feel bad for wanting to move out. I’ve never lived on my own and i live with my mom and brother. I practically pay all the bills bc my mom isn’t working rn, not the first rodeo, & even when she is im still paying half of the bills. I make decent money close to 7k after taxes but i haven’t been able to save much due to constantly needing to help out and taking care of myself. She nit picks at the smallest things & wants to keep telling me what to do with things that belong to me, my room is tiny barely have room for any of my clothes but wants to keep hollering to fix my room up. How? And the cluttered im talking about isn’t the dirty clutter, just what a small room looks like with bins everywhere, bins that i use daily. Anyways, i cant find an apartment because my credit sucks tried to fix it but just won’t move and im aware you need debt to basically have good credit but i dont want that neither. Private landlords here are scarce or have places that look completely unsafe and im just tired. I’m young i should be dating enjoying life, im tired of talking on the phone in my car doesnt matter if i was 40 i love privacy, always needing to perform. I work 16 hrs a day sometimes and i cant be an introvert here, i may have nothing to give and just want to shower to last day and even opening my mouth feels like nails on a board & then i get made feel bad for not wanting to. If i had my own place i can enjoy my solitude. She cant help me bc her credit also sucks & she has a chapter 7 on her that’s fresh. I can’t be myself and then when i get overstimulated im gaslit by why do i always have a attitude. Because im ready to leave the nest bro. I’m aware of how tough life is out there but it’s time for me to go, hell I’m already struggling at home. I just need time alone to figure me out i think we need space from each other.

As an 18M, I have late puberty, so my normal voice is just a tiny bit squeaky, so I tend to make my voice a little more rough on purpose when I'm speaking in certain situations or with specific rude people.

I only use my normal voice when I'm around people I'm comfortable with, like best friends, mom, and dad.

I don't make it noticable that I'm doing it on purpose though, so people actually think that's my real voice.