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This one's a doozy. First time posting here, so mods let me know if there's anything I need to change or if this doesn't fit here.

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Last comment from /u/worthless319 (16 days ago):

It’s an old pic I’m reminiscing upon as I’m stuck on a bus for 2+ days to get my revolver.

Edit : I’m halfway across the country because I found someone that would murder me by cutting off my cock. But they would have mutilated my corpse unwillingly and eaten me so I opted out.

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Let's start from the beginning.

/u/worthless319's account is 10 month's old, however his post history only starts up about 4 months ago with a post to /r/Cannibalism where he is apparently trying to seek a website that offers "longpigs" (human meat).

https://np.reddit.com/r/Cannibalism/comments/6hjk7a/has_anyone_heard_of_zambianmeatcom

He doesn't find much help nor does he follow up.

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He next comments in a post in /r/Buddhism which I assume he created only to delete later.

Here he outlines a good deal of his delusions and his current state of mind, as well as mentions some of the mutilation that's already occured:

https://np.reddit.com/r/Buddhism/comments/6uvbci/how_to_bring_an_awareness_into_suffering/dlvq2et?context=3

[..] "I", am a Messiah, whose sole purpose is to elevate humanity's consciousness and avoid self-annihilation. Crucifixion of the ego is a process of nature, no different than the rainfall or a flower blooming. [..]

I should have been practicing the past year but I was in the darkest depression that exists, extremely suicidal day after day, having severely self-mutilated, and failing to fulfill the requirements. [..]

The users of /r/Buddhism very correctly identify this as a mental health issue.

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A few days later in a deleted post to /r/spirituality he seems positive the eclipse is the sign he's been waiting for. It also contains more detail about his mutilation. Here's an excerpt (post contains a tiny amount of personal info, so I'm not going to link it directly):

[..] I have been anointed Messiah to initiate the Second Coming, but I have so much fear inside of me.

I overcame crucifixion. When I meditate I will leave my body as my consciousness expands infinitely and merges with the One to suffer immensely. It is a conscious action however, that is very difficult for me to make.

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During the following months he makes several posts to /r/awakened seeking spiritual help and details his mental state a bit more in-depth if you want to read through the threads:

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https://np.reddit.com/r/awakened/comments/6vdpyq/fear_of_suffering_bringing_an_awareness_into (2 months ago)

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https://np.reddit.com/r/awakened/comments/6vk17s/what_makes_suffering_a_spiritual_teacher (2 months ago)

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Note: This last one contains GRAPHIC descriptions of self-mutilation.

In this one he details exactly what he has done to himself, and laments that he cannot do more as "God" has willed.

It's very clearly a cry for help. He beings to realize exactly what he's done to himself.

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https://np.reddit.com/r/awakened/comments/6x8iyi/how_to_proceed_when_you_only_seem_to_fail (1 month ago)

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The users of /r/awakened are pretty obviously horrified, though some seem to think it's just a hoax.

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Over the next few months he continues making the occasional post to /r/awakened, where he is met with pleas to stop hurting himself. In one of these posts he provides pictures to prove his sincerity:

https://np.reddit.com/r/awakened/comments/6xn4ep/if_crucifixion_was_selfdone_yielding_a

NSFW/NSFL: https://imgur.com/a/IUy3N

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Over the next few days he makes a post to /r/awakened where he claims the tensions with North Korea and hurricane Irma are a direct result of his "failure to awaken":

https://np.reddit.com/r/awakened/comments/6yw50z/the_increasing_chaos_reflects_my_failure_to_awaken

He also makes probably his most positive post yet, if only he could continue on this path :(

https://np.reddit.com/r/awakened/comments/6z2i7d/purpose

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Next is a picture posted to /r/aww with his adorable Husky:

https://np.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/6zh8cv/ballboye_still_smiling_after_irma_and_still_wont

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But we dive right back into it with a post to /r/morbidquestions asking whether it would hurt worse to cut off his penis in large slices or small ones:

https://np.reddit.com/r/morbidquestions/comments/6zw061/what_would_hurt_worse_having_your_penis_cut_off

Also we get another picture showing the further mutilation that's occurred:

NSFW/NSFL: https://i.imgur.com/fwrGT1o.jpg

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Next comes various posts to /r/awakened, /r/morbidquestions, /r/AskReddit, /r/anesthesiology, and /r/BDSMAdvice indicating he's quickly reverting into a manic depressive "I need to cut my dick off" state again:

/r/awakened - Why is darkness, pain and suffering "the Way" to light, love and compassion?

/r/awakened - The paradox of Wu-Wei (action through inaction)

/r/AskReddit - Why or why not would alcohol be a decent anesthetic for performing self-surgery?

/r/awakened - How did Jesus maintain His love when being nailed to the Cross?

/r/awakened - Helpless

/r/anesthesiology - If you inject a local anesthetic (say, lidocaine) subcutaneously, will the pain come back linearly or immediately after a certain time?

/r/awakened - The Final Stand

/r/morbidquestions - How much would it hurt to have your penis cut off?

/r/awakened - Martyrdom and Planning Your Own Death

/r/BDSMAdvice - Advice on banding penis stump

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We'll take a break with another one of his posts to /r/aww with his Husky & cat:

https://np.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/72vslk/the_standoff

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Over the next 5 days his posts & comments become more and more manic, showing a clear spiral out of control. They turn into obvious cries for help

/r/spirituality (21 days ago) - How do you maintain love/tranquility during the times of an impending nuclear war and natural disasters?

/r/spirituality (19 days ago) - Maintaining peace when self-mutilating

/r/awakened (18 days ago) - How to maintain tranquility through a painful death?

God had forced me to mutilate myself in order to attain enlightenment. I fear that my next mutilation will result in my death, and the mutilations are extremely painful. When I am experiencing mind-numbing pain I do not know how to cope with it very well.

/r/DMT (18 days ago) - Committing suicide for God

/r/morbidquestions (18 days ago) - Depending on the wound, is it peaceful to bleed to death?

/r/morbidquestions (18 days ago) - Can you commit suicide by severing your penis?

/r/morbidquestions (18 days ago) - What’s the likelihood I survive severing the rest of my penis?

/r/medical (18 days ago) - Penile Amputation

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During these last 2 days we have posts/comments from him they very quickly devolve even more.

/r/awakened (17 days ago) - How do I gain the strength and mental fortitude to serve God with all my heart?

/r/religion (17 days ago) - How can I gain the love for God to serve His will and mutilate myself to death?

/r/morbidquestions (17 days ago) - How do disgruntled/drugged males have the mental fortitude to sever their own penises?

Thank you, I am having trouble removing the remainder of my penis in order to consume it as a blood sacrifice to the eternal. I need the mental fortitude to slowly slice through it, it’s very difficult.

/r/bodymods - How do people have the fortitude to sever their own genitals?

/r/Buddhism - How can I be present enough to mutilate my genitals and die for God?

We also get new pictures:

NSFW/NSFL: https://imgur.com/a/wSVRn

NSFW/NSFL: https://imgur.com/a/3gQMO

/r/morbidquestions (17 days ago) - What are some ways I could sever the stump of my penis?

/r/morbidquestions (17 days ago) - What drug could I take that will inspire me to mutilate myself?

/r/awakened (16 days ago) - How do you overcome the intense feelings of failing God?

16 days ago he makes this comment:

https://np.reddit.com/r/morbidquestions/comments/74yu5z/anyone_else_have_a_no_life_after_death_experience/do25lef/?context=3

Well, I travelled across the country to have a friend murder me and put me in his freezer but God said I have to do it myself. So I’m traveling back home on a bus so I can get my revolver. I have about a days worth of travel left.

It will be within the week and I will record it and upload it to Reddit during the time I’m bleeding out.

His last post to /r/aww (16 days ago):

https://np.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/74z53q/good_girl_loves_to_bask_in_the_sun_with_a_fancy

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Last comment from /u/worthless319 (16 days ago):

It’s an old pic I’m reminiscing upon as I’m stuck on a bus for 2+ days to get my revolver.

Edit : I’m halfway across the country because I found someone that would murder me by cutting off my cock. But they would have mutilated my corpse unwillingly and eaten me so I opted out.

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