Well now there’s allegations about me, so I guess I need to issue a statement. First off, hello. It’s been a while since we’ve talked. I’ve been pretty quiet and absent from social media and content for a good bit now (since early June to be exact - there’s reasons and I will get into them through the course of this letter, since I guess I can’t seem to avoid it).

Let me be clear, I am not happy about sharing all of this. I’ve shared most of my life with you, successes, failures, embarrassing moments, painful ones, lots and lots of stuff. You know when I shit my pants, you know when about my issues with impotence. But I’d like to have some level of privacy in my life. Some line where I am allowed to keep parts to myself. It’s an issue I’ve had with this relationship with y’all (the audience for a long time). I have trouble finding the line, but for my sanity I need to.

There’s an allegation out there that I sexted with a member of the community in the past. This is partially true, but I need to clear some things up. Until these last few weeks, I had no idea about the Ryan stuff. None. None of us did. We found out when you did. The accusation this person made about me knowing, is just not true. I’ve kept silent on the subject of him and Adam, not out of some sort of guilt or complacency, but out of horror and pain. It also hits very close to home for me and the reasons I’ve been absent these last few months.

I don’t have a well-documented list of events, hence my timelines are by memory, so forgive me if they are a little foggy.

I’ll start by saying that I’m not sharing any of this to disparage anyone.

Griffon and I were headed toward divorce years ago. Without getting too far into it, as it’s really no one's business but ours, we recognized it and did everything in our power to stop it. We tried multiple therapists, and many other things. One of our last attempts to right the ship was polyamory. For the last year or so we were together, we opened the relationship up. We didn’t do this lightly. We read multiple books about it, talked to people from that community, and even proactively got and started seeing a poly therapist to help us navigate (and when that wasn’t a good fit, we got a different poly therapist).

We tried to be as ethical and fair and kind to each other as possible in the process. That meant total communication, even when painful. This is another thing I need to refute from that report. When Griffon and I were together, I never kept things secret from her, nor she from me, and I always communicated that with the people I saw, as did she.

In that process we dated new people, and we both learned a lot about social media. I’d been married for about 22 years at that point (across two marriages obv), and had never dated with social media before. Tinder, snapchat, instagram, bumble, these were all ways people now met and expressed interest to each other, and in ways I’d never experienced before.

I was told this is how people dated now in the modern era, so I gave it a shot. Ultimately I found it to be an unbalanced and unrewarding way to meet and date.

I never set out to date people from the community, but I did meet a few. People would approach me constantly, from inside and outside of the community. I met and dated a few women during this time. I definitely talked with women who were familiar with Rooster Teeth. I did have a lot of insomnia in those days, and I definitely remember talking to a kind woman from Australia who approached me, and flirted with her, as she did with me. I saw this as nothing more than two consenting adults who were getting to know each other.

In the process, but not because of it, Griffon and I decided to separate and eventually divorce. I met and dated people in that time as well. I was newly single and extremely lonely and heartbroken and was pretty receptive to kind attention. Ultimately, in the process I decided that dating people from the community wasn’t for me. I felt at a huge disadvantage spending time with someone who already knew so much about me, and I so little about them. It left me feeling pretty exposed and uncomfortable, so I started hiding the Rooster Teeth part of my life, and only dating women from sites like Tinder and Bumble, where we met on equal footing.

Eventually I met my current girlfriend who knew nothing about RT or the community.

And that’s it. I never groomed anyone, I never approached anyone or manipulated them. I never did any of the unacceptable shit others have done. At every step I tried to be ethical and communicative and honest with people. When someone approached me out of interest, and I was interested in them, I got to know them. I thought I was being a single, consenting adult, getting to know others. I was just trying to navigate dating with a bunch of scary and exciting new social media platforms, and ultimately I hated them, and stopped.

None of this is why I’ve been silent, but I recognize that my silence will be interpreted as such, so here we go.

I had a complete and total nervous breakdown in June. My battle with alcohol addiction (still not drinking btw, still haven’t fucked that up), divorce, rebuilding my life from the ground up, taking the new role in the company, the (what felt like weekly) new controversies at RT, the political climate, the BLM stuff, all left me in a really raw and diminished state. Then, in June (and I’m not going to talk about it in detail probably ever - I just fucking can’t), there was a family tragedy that was more than I could bear. I took an immediate leave of absence from RT (Luis and Jordan were very kind and supportive of this, and everyone at RT has been incredibly patient with me, - I cannot thank them enough). With a lot of help from therapy and close friends and family I’m trying to put myself back together. It’s slow, and often feels impossible, but I’m working at it every day.

I’m not sure how to end this other than to say, I’ve never tried to be anything but ethical and honest with people, and I’ve never tried to take advantage of them or my status. If I missed that mark, I can only apologize and continue to try and grow and be better than I was.

If you do view me as a villain, take it out on me. Not my daughter, girlfriend, ex-wife, or co-workers. And regardless of how you feel about me, I love y’all.

TL;DR Go to https://www.battleforthenet.com/ and find/call your representative.

So i feel that this is adheres to Rule 1(Being Directly related to RT) because it affect our ability to watch RT's content, whether it be on youtube/ Xbox/ Official Site. Also RT being an Internet company it could affect them.

Hopefully the mods understand and allow this post to stay up, but as a Fan of RT and the the internet i can't not post this information and raise some awareness in our great community.

Simply put the FCC(Federal Communications Commission) is going to vote and try to end Net Neutrality soon. How does this affect us as RT fans? Well access to this subreddit and every other one on this site could be hampered, Reddit is huge and would be throttled in my opinion. Imagine paying extra to get to faster speeds to access youtube to watch RT and many others content or paying extra to have good speeds for Xbox or Playstation services to use the RT app/Games/ the service itself. Our access to the site itself could be slowed for any number of reasons.

I know in the past some in the company have spoken about it but i have not heard anybody bring it up for whatever reasons. Im not political at all and i went on the the website, put my number in and an automated machine connected me to my local representative. It took 2 MIN, and you can continue to be put thru to every representative in your state if you wish. The site even tells you what to say! This vote doesn't just affect access to RT but to the internet as a whole, it will affect you. Some think that if the vote to end NN passes that ISP wont throttle sites/services, and they even say that. Thats BS, a company's job is to make money off of you, and this will become Comcast/Version/AT&T bread and butter.

Thanks for reading, head to Battle for the Net

Edit: Holy CockBite, didn't think this would get so big. Thank you so much to those who want to show their support from inside the US and outside. Thank you! To those who are in favor of ending NN, you are entitled to your opinion and i hope that if it goes down that path it doesn't end in a shit show for lack of better words.

Credit to user /u/thoroughavvay To Add: Use https://resistbot.io/ if you have limited time Text "resist" to 50409 and you can send letters to all of your Congressional reps, even your governor, in mere minutes. Just provide an address so it can figure out who represents you, and you can send them all letters at the same time, with one message. This doesn't take long, and we have to do every little thing we can to let them know how many people will vote them out of office if they don't do their jobs.

ANNOUNCED ON THE STREAM!

Edit: Holy shit this went to /r/all, people are about to be confused

Watching RT stream. Jack is in tears. Poor dude. Much love Jack. We love you all :)

EDIT: because I think it’s important to see a complete image of how jack is feeling, consider watching this video from his wife Caiti’s Instagram account on the past weeks events.

https://www.instagram.com/tv/CGTKtb3J3-V/?igshid=1fo46963xk7kw

It’s very kindly considered and it shows how everyone is feeling on the topic

After seeing the kindness in the comments, I’m so happy to be a part of this community and I know we can move past the horror of the past week. Love you all 💜🧡💚

EDIT 2: credit to bloonatoR, a archive link for anyone out of the loop:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=3bd7OnpTuJ8

EDIT 3: As jack said in the opener, everyone consider putting a little cash aside for extra life. He deserves a good point for this year, poor guys been through so much and I think we should make extra life extra successful this year :)

If you’ve got an allegation to make, please contact this address: [email protected]

You will be listened to. They just want to know the extent

EDIT 4: since I’m seeing a few comments asking what’s going on (and I don’t want to repeat this horrible story for my own mental health), I’ve compiled a synopsis document with some suggested reading at the bottom if you want details:

Apologies, now set to public view :)

Updated the doc with a link to the newest victim, please be warned the subject matter is upsetting.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/12v--6ZN05aSgqoyQ24yzNzFqXPcb1h-PFtSqrHtCE58/edit