Ran into Trey on Monday in NYC while listening to theme from the bottom, was the trippiest moment of my life. He was super nice and shook my hand. Still processing the fact we crossed paths. Some crazy universal shit i manifested into reality or something. Listening to phish for hours on end everyday and running into the man himself was fuckin nuts!!!

Art credits - @dontedentoniart

Came back to my hotel and had a pleasant surprise. I told them I did not expect to hear a band playing phish in Vietnam. The singer goes, well we’re right by the sea, it’s a big part of our diet. 😂🤦🏻‍♂️

I saw 15 shows this summer and was able to make it through them sober inside and outside of Phish. Previously when I saw Phish, I was either blackout or way too miserably hungover from blacking out the previous night to enjoy myself. I have been sober for two months which is the longest that I have been sober in a very long time.

Everyone was completely respectful, and I never felt any pressure to do anything or drink. In general, I don't care if others partake. To each their own especially if they are able to handle it, are being safe, and having fun. It was hard to be around people consuming substances openly and not be distracted or be in the 'I see it I now want it' mentality but I was able to get over it towards the end of the summer run.

But it was unreal to be able to experience some of my favorite performances by Phish and remember it and be apart of it fully there. To end the summer with the Sabotage into Tweezer Reprise encore was unreal.

I want to thank every single one of you for all your thoughts, vibrations, prayers, well wishes, even heard from a few former one night best friends. I once again tried to respond to as many comments as I could. All your compassion has been a source of great strength to me. We spent her last day watching her two favorite movies, The Last Waltz and Stop Making Sense. I want you all to know that she did her honor walk with style wearing her favorite sun hat and some sweet shades (both in picture 1), our concert blanket draped over her, and my light buddy had some glow sticks on her chest. I got to be with her in the OR at the end and hold her hand and talk to her and sing to her. At 6:02 pm, after a warbly, off key singing of Ripple, she passed. She was able donate both kidneys and her liver (plus tissue and eyes). I want to take some time and write out a proper obituary for you and will be sharing it here.

If you want to honor Meredith’s memory she wanted people to a few charities, one of which was the Divided Sky Foundation (https://dividedsky.org/donate) which I thought was appropriate for this community. The other two charities are the Mariosa Fund and the Trevor Project.

I wanted to share more pics but this time more of day to day life. I love all of you and thank you for making what has been the most difficult time of my life and I hope to have a proper obituary written for Meredith tomorrow.

P.S. For those wondering, the last two pics are our first and last date.

Hey Pham, the beautiful woman in these pictures is my partner, my best friend, and my show buddy. She loved this band and man did she love dancing her ass off during shows (and what an ass it is). Someone even gave her a sticker at Mondegreen confirming her enthusiastic dancing. Without getting too technical, I’ll just say that she had some bleeding in her brain and is in a really bad way right now. She could really use all the love and light you could send and if you have any left over, I could use some too because I don’t know what I’m going to do without. Remember to tell your loved ones how you feel about them every chance you get.

Just wow