I’ve been studying languages now for over a decade. I enjoy studying languages and I enjoy reading and watching media. I can read adult novels in my languages with no problem. I can also understand most TV shows and movies. I am able to completely “think” in all my languages without resorting to English. And I am also good at accents, so my accent is very good. I’ve even done work as a written translator for a few years (into English only).
However, I recently applied for a bilingual position in what I consider my best language (the one I actually have a college degree in) and I discovered that, much to my dismay, even though I can have basic conversations with people and provide them with information, my speech is still hesitant and awkward with a lot of mistakes.
In a job interview, you are asked to describe past situations and how you handled them. Since these experiences were in English, I found that when describing them in another language, I suddenly realized that I was missing certain vocabulary or expressions that I never came across before. For example, I wanted to say “I had to find a solution on the fly” and couldn’t think of the Spanish expression “sobre la marcha”. And my speech was very slow and awkward, although I could eventually make myself understood, this was not appropriate for a professional position.
In other words, I can speak fluently when I control the direction of the conversation, but when asked to describe a specific situation, my fluency level goes down.
This is completely understandable since I’ve never actually used my languages in real life to speak to people at any great length of time or in any kind of professional environment. I realize that I could use a paid service or hire a tutor to practice conversations, but I don’t know if this is practical for 6+ languages and well, just sounds very artificial. And, to be honest, the part I enjoy is studying the grammar, reading books, watching TV, etc. with speaking just being a natural, but imperfect, bi-product.
The question is, can I still call myself a polyglot or a multilingual person if my reading and listening skills are C1, but my speaking skills are B1 or lower? When people hear that you “speak” 10 languages, they make certain assumptions about you and your abilities that are not necessarily the case and I always feel like a fraud or like I’m having imposter syndrome. If you say, I know French, people assume you can have a fluent conversation. Of course, I could just say "I can read and understand French" but it's not like I am completely mute and unable to say anything.