Although I have nothing in common with the pretentious stuck up society Patrick Melrose lives in. I can relate to the sexual abuse and passive mother completely because I am a victim. Never in my life have I seen such a depiction and performance of Episode 3's confession to his friend. I did the same a few years ago and it all felt too real. I've never cried publicly, I was on the train back home and was sobbing when watching this scene.

I really don't know what to say. Throwaway for obvious reasons.

Season 1 Episode 5: At Last

Aired: June 9, 2018

Patrick confronts the past on the day of his mother's memorial service. Now truly clean and sober, he attempts to solve the puzzle of his mother’s complicity in his father’s abuse, as well as answer his father’s question, ‘What will you do with your life?’ Limited Series Finale

Portraying such an evil character is not something every person is able to do. But by doing it so brilliantly he deserves respect for his performance in this dark serie.

I finished it about a week or two ago and binge watched most of it within a couple of days.

I'm really torn on it. Not on its quality - honestly the best I've ever seen Benedict Cumberbatch in anything, and the writing was incredible. The best way to describe it for me is that it's intensely triggering but I can't draw myself away from it. Like a car crash or something.

I find myself replaying particular scenes over and over again, literally and mentally. Fortunately I've never been abused sexually or otherwise, but I can understand a lot of the issues brought up here: depression, anxiety, dissociation, destroying relationships, self sabotage, alcoholism, addiction...it's honestly not like anything else I've watched. It has made me wonder if certain aspects of my past have affected me in ways I didn't even realize before. I'm getting choked up just writing this - it's all so visceral.

Is there anyone else here who connected deeply with the show for whatever reason? This all feels very disconcerting and strange for some reason. I came because the trailer was funny and Benedict Cumberbatch was in it and I left with multiple existential crises help

I lost count on how many times i have cried for Patrick, i am almost regretting watching this show knowing some kid somewhere in the world is going through the same thing feeling hopeless,confused and scared and the abusers might get away with it. Fuck this world.

Season 1 Episode 2: Never Mind

Aired: May 19, 2018

At the Melrose family’s glorious house in the South of France, young Patrick has the run of the magical grounds. His father David rules with cruelty and his mother Eleanor has retreated into self medication and booze. Bravely imaginative and self-sufficient out of necessity, 9-year-old Patrick encounters the volatile lives of adults with fear. They are expecting guests for the weekend, but this afternoon is profoundly unlike other summer days, and the shocking events that precede the guests’ arrival tear Patrick's world in two.

As someone assaulted as a kid (not by my father though I have had other issues with him) it hit so close to home, it gave me a weird sense of hope for myself and pride for him and I’ve never wanted to hug a fictional character more. The one scene I cried at yet beamed at simultaneously.

Wanted to watch this show after watching Sherlock for Benedict Cumberbatch, but the acting, the emotions, everything is sooooo goood. And it breaks my heart. I couldn’t bear to immerse myself into the second episode. I had to glance away every now and then into my phone to feel okay. The emotions were intense even though it was so quiet. Good god. Am looking forward to finish this whole season.

Season 1 Episode 4: Mother's Milk

Aired: June 2, 2018

Patrick is spending the summer at his old family home in France with his wife Mary and their two young sons. When Eleanor, now sober, announces her plan to leave the house to a New Age foundation instead of Patrick, he quickly falls off the wagon. As Patrick returns to his old self-destructive behavior, the fate of his marriage is seriously threatened.

Season 1 Episode 3: Some Hope

Aired: May 27, 2018

Patrick reluctantly agrees to go to his first big social event since recovering. Together with his good friend Johnny Hall, he attends a glittering party in the English countryside hosted by former hippie Bridget – now married, titled and miserable – and attended by Princess Margaret as well as a number of Patrick's old flames. Amid a crowd of social dragonflies, Patrick searches for redemption and capacity for forgiveness, while confronting his past in a myriad of ways.

Season 1 Episode 1: Bad News

Aired: May 12, 2018

In the grip of his addictions, Patrick Melrose must fly to New York to collect his father’s ashes. Over the course of a lost Manhattan weekend, Patrick’s remorseless search for satisfaction, haunted by old acquaintances and insistent inner voices, sends him into a nightmarish spiral, including a disastrous date with the girl of his dreams. Alone in his hotel room later that night, he pushes body and mind to the very edge – desperate to stay one step ahead of his rapidly encroaching past

This hit very close to home. Without the sexual abuse and without the addiction to hard drugs, the dynamics are similar to my own family. Very helpful actually, made me feel less odd, less alone. Anyone else feel the same?

Spoiler! -His character makes me sick to my stomach in every one of his scenes. Don’t get me wrong, i’m just as fond of sexual abuse as the next person but it’s just the arrogance that gets to me.

How were we meant to see that last flashback where the child Patrick confronts his father and his father breaks down in sobs? It almost felt like a fantasy, something Patrick wished it happened but maybe it's something he remembers to make peace with the past.

Did I miss something? I've been thinking about that moment.

did patrick melroses mother know his father rapes him?? and why did david do it????

Collected into one volume for the first time, all five installments of Edward St. Aubyn's celebrated Patrick Melrose novels
Now an Emmy® award nominated 5-part limited event series on Showtime, starring Benedict Cumberbatch and Blythe Danner

Edward St. Aubyn has penned one of the most acclaimed series of the decade with the Patrick Melrose Novels. Now you can read all five novels in one volume: Never Mind, Bad News, Mother's Milk, Some Hope, and At Last.

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What did he do to Patrick? David told him to take his trousers off and then the door was closed and no voice was heard. What did he do to him that if he were to tell his mother, David would snap him in two?

Sorry, english is not my native tongue and I have difficulties understanding what Patricks Mother utters at the end of the fourth episode. Thanks in advance!